HOOOOO BOY well i wrote 5k more of the niall/barry misfits au today, i don't know what's happening or why but i'm not fighting it. here is 3.5k of it for you!! i decided not to split it up because this scene would be a standalone chapter, i think.

i'm finally gonna advance the plot, lol, and things are about to get weird!!! tiny bit of body horror/supernatural elements ahead, just heads up! and i'm back to barry's pov (thanks to meghan for some excellent questions re: the dynamic and some details about stuff barry notices about niall, this is basically all in response to your comment). also it’s hard writing irish people so just, yknow, I’ll get it irish-picked eventually, but bear with the weird mashup of probably misused irish/british slang all filtered through a v american syntax, lol.

i don't know how to number these sections so they make sense, so on the off chance that anyone has just wandered onto this page and is craving niche angst, i'll just.. include a quick overview here of the sections in the order in which they should be read.
1. barry POV section/general premise stuff is
here
2. niall POV sections and backstory (
part 1, part 2, part 3
)
3. barry POV (the section/chapter under the readmore cut below)


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OK AND PART THREE! (previous parts: barry POV/general plot outline is here, part 1 of the niall POV/outline is here, part 2 is here.) content warnings in this section for description of a panic attack.

Niall’s been living rough for a week since the storm. He doesn’t go to the police because he’s pretty sure the guy was telling the truth about having influence there, and he doesn’t want to be arrested or handed over to the guy. the money runs out fast, though, and he’s hungry and cold and scared. Maybe he sees a female prostitute on the street somewhere and he thinks, I could do that, maybe, because hasn’t he been doing it already, hasn’t he been whoring himself out to this rich old guy for nice clothes and presents and a roof over his head. So he starts hanging around places where he thinks maybe he could pick someone up, trying to look available.

Maybe the first night he doesn’t have much luck, loitering around. Or maybe he does pull, but he fucks it up somehow. He’s so nervous he feels sick to his stomach, and as soon as he gets into the guy’s car he starts feeling super claustrophobic, like the walls were closing in on him. He can’t stop thinking about how it could all go wrong—what if the guy just turns the car on and drives off with him, locks the doors so he can’t get out, what if he takes Niall somewhere and kills him and dumps his body in a ditch by the side of the road. He tries to keep a lid on his panic, but for some reason he can’t shove it down like he normally does—maybe it’s because now he knows that somebody could do that to him, and he keeps hearing the rich guy’s voice in his head, telling him that nobody would even miss him, nobody would even come looking for him. Then the john starts acting really fucking weird, like he’s drunk or on drugs or something—he’d seemed normal when Niall got into the car, but all of a sudden he’s breathing weird and his pupils are weirdly dilated, his skin all cold and clammy.



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OK SO. NOW THAT THE SAD NIALL BACKSTORY IS ESTABLISHED, LET'S JUST RAMP UP THAT ANGST SHALL WE??? (previous parts: barry POV/general plot outline is here, part 1 of the niall POV/outline is here.) content warnings in this section for dubcon, emotional manipulation/abuse, and brief, nongraphic mention of physical abuse.

as Meghan suggested, when he meets the older guy at first it’s incredible. maybe he meets him when he’s taken the train into the city or something to go to this record shop, and he’s sitting out in the park or in a café or something, looking at the CDs/records he’s just bought and daydreaming, pretending that he lives in the big city, maybe watching some boys skateboarding across the street or something and imagining what it’d be like if he went to uni here and they were his friends. idk how exactly their first encounter goes but the rich old guy starts talking to him somehow, and realizes pretty fast that niall’s a lonely, lonely kid, and that nobody’s ever really listened to him before. I don’t know how exactly he chooses him, if it’s just luck or chance or whatever, but he keeps asking him questions, drawing him out, seeming interested in the answers.

they talk for so long that niall winds missing his train. the guy offers to drive him home in his fancy car, and then he suggests that they stop for dinner or something, maybe, gets niall a little drunk. niall’s just, like, totally dazed by it all, sort of intoxicated on the interest this guy’s showing him, and the guy’s obviously so rich and well-connected, he’s telling niall all about his collection of records and about the artists he knows, saying casually that he could introduce niall to some of them, maybe, if niall’s ever in the city again… etc. he’s not outright hitting on him, but it’s very suggestive, and he sort of lets his gaze linger, and when he drops niall off he gives niall his business card and maybe writes his home address on the back, tells him to drop by the next weekend and he’ll show him that autographed record he was telling him about or something like that. niall thinks he must just be joking, this guy can’t honestly want to see him again, but then the guy’s like, I’ll send a car for you on Saturday, how does that sound, and niall’s dazedly like, okay, yeah. no, I don’t have any plans.



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I was thinking more about Niall’s character in the fic and where he comes from and what’s going on with him, and then meghan left this comment about a possible explanation for the guy following niall:

okay this is a rather dark option, but uh... perhaps niall did not have such a great home life and was targeted but an older man who seemed nice and handsome and bought niall nice things and treated him so kindly. and it was the best thing to happen to him! and he left his shitty family situation and was head over heels for this dude, but in reality the dude was an abuser grooming niall, and the second niall made noises about trying to reconcile things with his dad or whatever, dude turned violent.

and well that is RIGHT UP MY ALLEY in terms of dark fic backstories + niall suffering, and it also fits PERFECTLY with my idea for niall’s superpower. idk if anyone remembers the little empathy fic outline I did a while back for an angsty narry canon fic (https://saysthemagpie.tumblr.com/tagged/empathy-fic), but the basic premise of that fic was that niall has a condition that makes his feelings contagious, which means that if he’s feeling something very strongly anyone who’s physically close to him will ‘catch’ his mood. it’s not like he’s mind controlling them or anything, sometimes it’s very subtle, but niall’s learned to be very, very careful about controlling his emotions and not letting them seep out into the room, and he’s also become very watchful/observant/attuned to how other people feel, because he needs to know how they were feeling before or how they usually act so he can tell if his mood has been unconsciously influencing them in some way.

ANYWAY SO, as I said before, in Misfits people’s powers amplify some aspect of themselves, or are tied to a deep-rooted insecurity or past regret, so people’s powers are tied to their backstories and often tell you something about the person. and in this fic, the power niall gets is kind of a variation on that emotional contagion premise. when he gets struck by lightning, it’s like it reverses something inside of him, or recircuits something, and so now all of the feelings that he’s been internalizing and tamping down for his whole life are suddenly projected outwards into his environment, and other people feel what he feels, in ways that are often super amplified or unpredictable or out of control. (I was discussing this idea with Hannah last night and she said: “I just love the thought of two essential Irish personality traits being taken away from Niall, 1) not being a burden and 2) being emotionally controlled,” which, YES. YES EXACTLY!!!!!



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wow well... i guess i'm a niall/barry shipper now. i have no idea how it happened. do i regret it? i don't know yet? but how about: a niall/barry au where they’re rentboys with superpowers.

HEAR ME OUT!!!!

it would be loosely misfits-inspired, or set in a verse similar to that. in the first episode of misfits there’s a weird electrical storm. a bunch of people across the city are struck by lightning and develop superpowers as a result, including a group of juvenile delinquents who are doing court-mandated service work at the local community center. the show is SO GOOD, but mostly I just love the concept of kids who have zero interest in Defending the Community getting superpowers and… not being emotionally transformed by them, lol. they just keep being disaffected misfit teenagers with bad attitudes who mostly want to use their powers to get out of having to do any work. except that it turns out that other people have also been affected by the storm, and some of those people are trying to kill them, or kill everybody, or turn the whole city into zombies, or whatever, and the teenagers are like “ughhh are you KIDDING?? fine. FINE!!!!!” and reluctantly use their powers to save the city, but usually in like, very self-centered ways that are still not about the Good of the City but are more in the vein of “this is going to become super fucking annoying if we don’t do something about it, isn’t it.”

(it’s also suuuuch a hilarious take on the “found family” trope, because they do become a little misfit oddball family, obviously, and they care about each other, but they’re also soooo annoyed by each other most of the time, and they form these little shifting sibling alliances against whoever’s being most annoying that week. (like, imagine a found family whose dynamics are less ot5 and more like, harry, zayn, fionn, louis, and liam getting repeatedly thrown into life-or-death situations and having to decide if working together is preferable to dying a gruesome death. and at times everyone (esp fionn and zayn lol) are like “…but is it? IS it preferable?” because everyone is so fucking obnoxious. BUT ALSO THEY LOVE EACH OTHER. IT’S JUST SUCH A GOOD SHOW OK!!!!!!!)

ok but forget all that for now haha, the dunkirk boys/ot5 come in MUCH later. the story starts with barry, who ran away from a shitty foster home situation when he was fifteen, had a very rough go of it at first, but has carved out a little space for himself in the past few years and is doing all right for himself. he’s had a couple jobs here and there, mostly washing dishes in restaurants, but he kept getting let go and left shorthanded, and sex work pays better, especially now that he’s got a handful of regulars. sometimes it’s shit—he’s had his share of bad clients and close calls with the police—but he thinks of it as a job, and he’s never been the type to complain, especially when all he has to do is look to see a dozen people whose luck has been way shittier than his. he’s a bit of a loner—he’s a friendly guy, says hello to people in his building, never has any trouble making friends down at the pub, but he doesn’t let people get too close. his life’s just fine as is, thanks very much, and he’s not looking to be responsible for anyone else. (there’s some more Backstory there, but that's FOR LATER.)

I can’t decide if barry and niall meet before or after the storm. I think the storm happens first, about a week before they meet. barry’s one of the people who gets struck by lightning, but he doesn’t realize that he’s got a power. he doesn’t even fully understand what happened—it felt like he got struck by lightning, but that’s impossible, because he’s pretty sure if he had he’d be dead, all his circuits fried. and he’s not dead, or even hurt, though he skinned his elbow when he fell, and he’s pretty sure his eyebrows got singed a little by—by whatever the hell that was. anyway, he’s not about to go to the a&e and sit around all day waiting for some doctor to tell him there’s nothing the matter with him, so he patches himself up and goes about his day. if he drops dead of a heart attack or something later, well, at least it’s end of the month and he won’t have to pay the landlord next week.

maybe he’s out working one night about a week after the storm. he's got his first job of the night, nothing big, just a quick handjob in the back of some guy’s car. when he gets out of the car, though, he sees this kid hanging around by the corner. the kid’s young—not, like, jailbait young, but eighteen or nineteen, maybe, with a baby face and a jacket that’s way too big with him, makes him look even skinnier. he’s sort of slouched against the streetlight, surveying the street, and he looks unsure of himself but he’s obviously on the pull.

barry’s not gonna be an asshole about it or anything—kid looks scared of his own shadow—but he’s also not gonna let some new guy who doesn’t know the rules take business from him, so. he saunters over and is like [insert casual friendly irish small talk] and the kid’s wary but talks to him, starts to relax just a fraction when he realizes barry’s irish too. they chat for a bit—the kid’s new to the city, like he thought, and he’s cagey enough about where he’d come from and what brought him here that barry thinks there’s probably a story there. he doesn’t ask, though, just keeps it light and friendly, and then after a couple minutes he’s like, all right, well, nice talking to you, if you’re working you’d better try a couple blocks down. And he he watches niall kinda realize that oh, barry’s also working, and this is his block or whatever, he’s not just being friendly, he’s warning niall off. and niall immediately tenses back up, withdraws again. maybe there’s a momentary flash of disappointment in his eyes, but he’s immediately like, right, yeah. okay. sorry, and barry’s like, no worries, guess I’ll see you around. and that’s that. maybe he will see niall around, maybe he won’t. his money’s on won’t, because niall seems like a nice kid and scared shitless, too, and there’s plenty of people out here who’ll smell that on him a mile away. but that’s niall’s lookout, not his.

anyway, niall wanders off and some guy comes by, starts talking to barry, and barry’s talking back, negotiating a price or whatever, when he sees over the guy’s shoulder that some super fancy car has pulled up alongside niall and someone’s talking to him from the driver’s seat. at first barry’s pissed off, because didn’t he just tell niall to keep moving. but then he sees that niall hasn’t stopped walking. he's ignoring whoever’s in the car, but the car’s still following him, just crawling along the curb.

something about it doesn’t sit right with barry. niall's whole posture is defensive: his shoulders hunched, his hands jammed in his pockets. when whoever’s driving reaches out and tries to snag his arm, he jerks away so hard he almost stumbles, catching himself at the last minute. he doesn’t look around him, doesn’t look at whoever’s in the car, just keeps his eyes fixed on the sidewalk. he doesn’t look back at barry, either. like he already knows that nobody’s going to help him.

the guy barry’s been talking to is like, ‘so what, do we have a deal?’

niall’s reached the end of the block and rounded the corner, the car turning smoothly after him. that’s a blind alley down there, no windows onto the street. which niall doesn’t know, obviously, because he’s new.

‘oh, for feck’s sake,’ barry says under his breath.

‘what'd you say to me?’ the guy says, lurching closer like he’s trying to be threatening, breath stinking of whiskey, and barry’s like, ‘oh, piss off,’ and shoves him out of the way, taking off down the street after niall.

OKAY AND THEN STUFF HAPPENS!!!!!! WHO IS THE GUY IN THE CAR????? WHAT'S NIALL'S DEAL???? WHAT KIND OF SUPERPOWER IS BARRY ABOUT TO MANIFEST???? HOW DO THEY MEET UP WITH THE OTHER DUNKIRK BOYS AND WHEN DOES THE REST OF OT5 SHOW UP AND WHAT ARE THEIR POWERS????? THESE ARE QUESTIONS I HAVEN'T ANSWERED YET SO IF YOU HAVE ANY IDEAS LEMME KNOW. but i am pretty sure I know what niall's superpower is and it's GONNA BE ANGSTY!!! (in misfits the deal is that people's superpowers amplify some aspects of their personalities and are usually tied to like, some deep-rooted insecurity or past regret sooooo that's something to chew on. lol what do you think harry's is gonna be. is there narry in this backstory? time will tell.)
nicole commented "barry/niall is the New Narry" and then i wrote this very long comment that i've decided to make a post instead, so i can save it in my brand new niall_barry tag. here it is:

in this hypothetical 50k barry/niall character study fic i am imagining a narry backstory where it wasn't like, they were dating and harry broke niall's heart, but more like, narry had this weird intense soul bond friendship/relationship they never labeled, and even now that they're not really talking anymore, that soul bond remains somehow so integral to niall's sense of self that he can't/won't talk about him to anyone else. it's like harry is this thing that goes without saying in niall's life/past, this thing that everyone who knows niall just... accepts and doesn't ask about, because it feels too big. harry is this tangled knot of feeling at the very center of niall, and part of niall is afraid that if he pokes at it too much, if he tries to unravel it, he'll unravel himself in the process. he'll come apart, come undone. and barry has to sort of... navigate around that and figure out how to make sense of it without saying something that's going to make those walls come up that keep him out. and maybe everyone else in niall's life has just like.. let it be, because they figure it's too much to get into, or they figure niall knows his own business. and barry kinda gets that, he does think that for the most part niall knows his own business and can handle himself just fine, but when it comes to harry he's not so sure niall knows what he's doing. and he sort of feels like, there are things about niall and harry's bond that niall's gonna need to sort through someday. like, the way it evolved in this weird cramped claustrophobic space they carved out for themselves at the center of their insane lives. the way niall's whole adult sense of self seems to have developed around harry in ways that don't strike barry as completely healthy, not that he's one to judge the coping mechanisms people develop to deal with things they can't shut out.

i just love narry examined from the outside, especially a kind of.. not darker but less idealized version of narry? a version of narry where they really are best friends and they do love each other, but niall has this idealized vision of their bond in his head. and he invested so much energy into it back then, because he needed some kind of solid foundation, some stable point he could use to orient himself when everything else about their lives was so transitory and impermanent. and barry kind... sees that, and gets it, but is also starting to piece together this maybe more accurate vision of harry as someone who leaves, and who isn't always good at following through or being the person he promised to be, and who had good intentions but also really kinda messed with niall's head. and maybe the only way that niall is going to be able to unpack what was Not Good for him about 1d, or those incredibly complicated layers of good and not-good, is by unpacking what was good and not-good about his relationship with harry.

OK I HAVE NO IDEA IF ANY OF THAT MAKES SENSE!!!!! IDK I just went through all of Flicker having all of my "HARRY HOW COULD YOU" feelings, but now i am also enjoying thinking about a very different version of narry!!! AND ALSO ABOUT BARRY/NIALL, WHICH I GUESS I AM SUPER INTO NOW??
oh my god i just read this interview and i'm so so full of barry feelings??? i have a Lot of Headcanons that i did not have five minutes ago????? wow i almost can't even articulate them now because they feel so brand new but i am really really interested in how this new information about his childhood would affect wolfpack dynamics, and I am also v interested in the fact that he is five years older than fionn, which changes something about the way i'm headcanoning them. and ALSO i am having so many feelings about him thinking of acting as a job rather than a Sacred Craft, esp the fact that he only auditioned because he saw a note in a window and secretly wrote down the number so his friends wouldn't laugh at him and then called it at home??? also the quote from his girlfriend about him being impulsive and not thinking things through but also being caring and feeling deeply when he's hurt someone!!!

and i will eventually have SOME WORDS TO SAY about niall and barry, especially re: "It’s not easy but it has made me who I am. I don’t go around complaining about it, I get on with it," and re: Irish boys from dysfunctional families getting on with it and not going around complaining about it, and tbh?? i would read a 50k barry/niall fic that explores like.. barry idolizing niall, and also the two of them having this sort of intuitive unspoken understanding re: irishness and being (or wanting to be) permanent expats and having a complicated relationship to home/family. but then niall's life has been very easy in some ways ($$$ mostly), but also not easy in other ways -- i'm just thinking of that quote from zayn's PR person today about one direction being like the army, where you lose the ability to tell what's good/healthy for you, and it doesn't matter what you feel really because it's not going to stop or slow down even if you wanted it to. and maybe fic!barry has some understanding of what it feels like to be caught up in this sort of amorphous impersonal system that doesn't really care where you want to go or what you want to do, but also, he was able to sort of kick out at it and stir up trouble and be impulsive in ways that allow him to exercise/have some kind of freedom. whereas niall couldn't rebel, he was so under the microscope and so conscious of all these other people's futures riding on him, and he just learned to control and suppress whatever he was feeling. he trained himself to ignore whatever signs his body and brain were giving him because his body/brain kept saying it was Too Much but things being Too Much wasn't an option. OK PHEW. WOW. TWO DIFFICULT BACKSTORIES THAT WERE DIFFICULT IN SUCH WILDLY DIFFERENT WAYS!!! WHAT WOULD THEY BE LIKE TOGETHER!!!!! HOW WOULD THESE HISTORIES MANIFEST IN THE RHYTHMS / DYNAMICS OF THEIR RELATIONSHIP????

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